Never let people know that they got to you. Ignore them. Hold your head up high and pretend all their negative remarks don’t even phase you, and someday they actually won’t.

“I’ve chosen my side. A good mix is good, but in my opinion it’s proven that we didn’t get that previously. Can we get it right this time, with everyone starting to be so unreasonable these days? Many believe in change, a drastic one. But I believe otherwise. I believe what we all need is improvement, not a drastic change.”

“One more week to go. And to be honest I am very worried. I don’t know who to believe and what to believe. Everyone has their own point to make, yet I don’t know what’s exactly in their hearts. Or if what is presented is the truth or if it is a lie. All I am certain is that everyone has their own hidden agendas and that’s the scariest part of it all. Ya Allah, please protect my country.”

Anxiously waiting for May 5th. And it's getting to me too. I get the fever. And I don't like myself when this happen. Every 5 years. This will happen.

Grudges are a waste of perfect happiness. Let it go.

You know, I avoid writing about any of this in public but today I just felt so disturbed so I decided to blog about it.

Apologies if you ever find me insulting, or shallow, or over the top. I just want to get this out of my system, and this place is mine to blab.

Whenever the general election is approaching, many people seem to get so desperate in having their voice heard and trying to pull-out some drastic move to get everybody's attention.

One after another, they become the highlights and to many, cheap publicity-stunts and jokes.

I know, these are all relating to matters of the well-being of our country & its people, as most of us will take these to our hearts.

And I don't deny this; as much as I hate this time of the year, I do have my heart devoted to care, and I do get emotional. Especially when seeing everyone went out of their minds and the hatred just spread. like. an. epidemic.

You know what I see myself whenever this is happening? A small girl trying to amuse, occupy herself with some random stuff while listening to their parents fighting.

Seriously the hatred just get to me even though I tried so hard to ignore it.

Since 1998. That's the first time I was exposed to all of these. I was 10. My parents had no choice but to explain a little bit what was happening and at that point of time I kept on wondering why us kids in school have to argue and fight about all these political issues when we're just freaking 10?

And I just don't understand why some parents won't mind teaching their kids to hate, to be rude, feeding their kids with issues that they probably don't even understand in the first place  and to just spread things that possibly be false rather than teaching them to love, to be kind, to be respectful to each other, and try to see good in everyone, teaching them manners.

You know what? I do get tired of people fighting all the time on this. Apparently the younger ones think they're some wise old men, and the adults are fighting like kids wanting to get a spot on a swing at a playground. Some of the people of my generation somehow think as if they know everything already by just hearing, and watching videos (to most of us who don't even "get on the field"). Come on, really you think living for two-decades is enough for you to know everything that is happening in the world?

To me, we're still naive. But its a good thing we paid attention to all of these because they help us grow. It's healthy.

But I believe we should just first witness, experience. Maybe keep our mouths shut first, we just observe instead.

Especially when we're still not that good in handling our own emotions.

Well I think, doesn't matter how old you are, whoever can't keep calm should not be voicing out in the first place (and that is a reminder to me too!). Because when emotions get in the way, things will likely turn ugly. It's not your calm-self talking and probably it's your hormones doing the thinking too.

And too emotional also made you unreasonable.

What we should do is to take a step back, and try to be grateful and slowly think of ways to be better. And not to use your religion, your power, your money, or anything you can bet on to win.

We fight for the betterment of the people, not just yourselves.

And we're all in this together, one country. So let's be together shall we?

I don't think the objectives of the whole rally thing are as what they seem to be. Clean election? You really think those who marched up are asking for that, or asking for something else?

I am not a person who like politics. In fact, when it comes to this I become very ignorant about it. So who am I to say things right?

Anyway this whole thing made me wonder, why is it that "change" is what everyone is asking. I used to be that person, who always wanted change. Thinking other people can do better. Or we can do better. But try to put yourself out there, and see how you can fit in their shoes. Try to run it, then you'll see.

Even if change is what you need, you must know you need patience. Something can't be changed within a day, or a month. It is going to take longer than that. Depending on what you want to change, which the bigger the change, the longer time we need to make it. Can't you just be a little bit more patient?

Maybe what we need is acceptance. And the skills of a survivor. Especially when it comes to all these, everything is not going to be beautiful. Things going to get ugly, what you have to do is to try to survive. Learn to adapt, so maybe that's how you'll complain less. And be grateful.

Yes, to challenge is a good thing, but I believe that we need to see the situation first. But if what you want to challenge and fight for will compromise peace? When it will affect others quite badly? I am sorry but I have to go against it.

You say its the roadblocks and the police. Yes, I complain when I am stuck in it. But if I were to pin point to who, it won't be them. What if they're not there? Anything could happen you know. Don't say they'll be just marching because I won't believe it.



I love my country. So I have to have my best interest in it. Maybe its time for me to take off this "ignorance is bliss" cap and start be in the know. Hah, I know. Shame on me.

I hate politics.

80+ Parliamentary chairs belong to the opposition. 5 states fell into their hands.

I'm not surprised.

but I wonder...

is this a good thing. or not?

I'm looking forward. And at the same time I am scared.

Let's keep on being positive okay.

Ya Allah,

I am hoping that this is not just the unhealthy battles between the politicians. Show me that, is the changes for our country and for us the Malaysians that they want. Not just pride, and totally not about money.

Aminn