“I keep thinking about this river somewhere, with the water moving really fast. And these two people in the water, trying to hold onto each other, holding on as hard as they can, but in the end it's just too much. The current's too strong. They've got to let go, drift apart. That's how it is with us. It's a shame, Kath, because we've loved each other all our lives. But in the end, we can't stay together forever.” 

― Kazuo Ishiguro, Never Let Me Go

So finally, I got my hands on the book, Water for Elephants. Thanks to my mom, she's willing to buy the book and let me borrow it. Well I was not supposed to buy any books as I have tons of them to finish at home plus I was on a tight budget that time. LOL. That's fine. I just need to read it that's all. And it'll be in the house so yeh.

But just when I started to read it, one guardian angel actually invited me to join her to watch the movie - for freeee! Apparently when she bought the book it was really a good bargain because that's how she got the free movie tickets, AND a discounted price for the book. It's like you buy 2 movie tickets and you'll get the book for free.

She's one lucky lass.

Anyhoo. I think the movie is a bit torturing in a way, BUT only in some tiny parts. If you know me well, and you watch the movie you'll figure out why the movie is a torture to me :P Apart from that, I just love it. Okay, NOT JUST because Robert Pattinson is adorable and awesome in that movie, and also NOT JUST because Christoph Waltz is in there, as usual taking the controversial antagonist character. I love the storyline, the settings (Its a circus people. Its always magical to me!), we can see how the circus is run, the amazing elephant, the forever graceful Reese Witherspoon who potrays the character Marlena, and of course, the guys mentioned before :P. And it made me realize on how people won't care much about other people, or other beings especially during the desperate times.

..and somehow you have to take a huge step ahead to make a change. Well that change? It gives us hope. You just have to work hard for it.

But I have to finish the book first then only compare with the whole thing :) Like Never Let Me Go? Yes I've also watched the movie finally. Apparently the movie doesn't really affects me as much as the book. I like the movie nonetheless.

Anyhoo, thanks to Yasmin for inviting me. It's like one of our long-delayed-hang outs plus farewell hang out as she's going away to Ireland to do industrial training there. How cool is that?

If you are reading this, I wanna thank you for the free passes, and your time. Its always fun to hang out with you :) and please take a good care of your self, and don't forget to have fun while you are there. Take some time to appreciate the place, the people, the thing you're doing there, basically the life you're having. Oh, and stay awesome. Can't wait to see you when you get back so we could catch up more :)

Well, okay. Don't get me wrong. I wasn't saying that the book was bad. Its really good. It bothers me up to this much, so I must say it is really good. 

To be honest? It's one of those crazy sad stuff that I love. Why? Because it felt, real. Who would disagree to this; no matter how much you are trying to convince others on how much a realist you are, deep down, you created your own idealist world. No? Well, at least during your childhood days? or student days even?

The perfect world you would live in. 

Mine is just as surreal as most girls' ideal world. Lets leave it at that. 

So when these kinds of reading, or movie, or even situation came along and you are the 'observer' or the 'audience', they give you a sort of a bitch slap of reality to your face. To remind you that this is how life should be like. And what you should do, is to be positive, and be accepting about it. 

And for me, this book is all about that. It reminds you on no matter how things do not turn out to be the way you wanted, all you have to be is positive, and accepting. All you have to remember is no matter what, you have those memories, of love, of pain, of friendship and kinship, to guide you along, to always give you light in the dark. 

Never mind my very own life experiences. Of course they taught me the best. Other than that, usually visual stuff left a deeper scar on my heart. Like the movie The Green Mile, The Reader, (500) Days of Summer, or Jeux d'enfants. Maybe when I get the DVD of this movie, it'll become another one on the list too. 

I admit this. Deep down, until now, the hope of maybe my ideal world exists is still there. But I know slowly, I am accepting the reality. That is why I am grateful to be able to experience myself and watch/observe on these stuff. And somehow from time to time, I will find myself re-watching or re-reading (although very unlikely :P) them. Or rewinding my own life experiences.

They are good wake up calls. Well, we all need to be reminded. Don't we?