Another chance at redemption.
I'm actually embarrassed, thinking about how many chances that I blew off. And I keep blowing off every chances I get. And I am still unsure if I am using the chances right.
I just failed again a few days back. And today I feel like I am failing again.
Failure, is what I have to get used to. I have been failing so many times in this short period of time. Especially during the past 3 years of my life.
I am not used to it, every time felt like the first time.
Well, I guess I will just keep on trying.
With the right sincere niat, I believe every chance is going to be worth it.
Funny, how failure is my greatest fear, and I have to go through it every so often these days. And I don't know how I feel about that. And I don't know how I can actually go through it so many times. I am wondering.
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Tuesday, February 26, 2013
Don’t regret intimate relationships that don’t work out. Because they will only help you find the right partner for you, and better appreciate them for everything they do and everything they are.
How can you get yourself so attach to someone who isn't attach to you at all?
Well, some may say this is just an illusion, probably you're too engrossed in your ideals, rather than the reality itself.
I don't know.
Used to think that way until I fell into the trap. And I am stuck in it for a long time.
Though I am not sure if I am still lost. Maybe I am. However I know I'll find my way out. I know I have to believe these;
Selfless love is a beautiful thing.
Unrequited love is where we can find beauty in a most painful situation.
The process is just natural. Probably everyone has to get thru this stage at one point of time in their lives, and I am blessed to be going through it when my heart can still take it all in. Although it is now so much weaker, at least it is learning to gather more strength to be stronger.
And I don't lose anything. Because I learn to love, or learning to be more exact, and I am learning not to expect anything else in return. And that's also how I found peace.
Every challenges, every trials, every calamity; they're all blessings in disguise.
And I got myself closer to You. Alhamdulillah.
I am not going to deny that my heart is yearning. And it is still not ready to let go. But I am holding on to You, knowing that You know what is best for me.
All I am doing now is to get ready. For you, whomever you may be.
And I hope you're doing fine :)
Well, some may say this is just an illusion, probably you're too engrossed in your ideals, rather than the reality itself.
I don't know.
Used to think that way until I fell into the trap. And I am stuck in it for a long time.
Though I am not sure if I am still lost. Maybe I am. However I know I'll find my way out. I know I have to believe these;
Selfless love is a beautiful thing.
Unrequited love is where we can find beauty in a most painful situation.
The process is just natural. Probably everyone has to get thru this stage at one point of time in their lives, and I am blessed to be going through it when my heart can still take it all in. Although it is now so much weaker, at least it is learning to gather more strength to be stronger.
And I don't lose anything. Because I learn to love, or learning to be more exact, and I am learning not to expect anything else in return. And that's also how I found peace.
Every challenges, every trials, every calamity; they're all blessings in disguise.
And I got myself closer to You. Alhamdulillah.
I am not going to deny that my heart is yearning. And it is still not ready to let go. But I am holding on to You, knowing that You know what is best for me.
All I am doing now is to get ready. For you, whomever you may be.
And I hope you're doing fine :)
Thursday, October 21, 2010
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