A damn long entry. Hope you won't get bored :)

Exactly 32 minutes left before the clock strikes 12. We're entering the new day soon. In 32 minutes.

Ah its already Sunday. Exactly a week has passed. Well I was busy on Saturday so that doesn't count as a holiday. So yeah, exactly one week.

I am so behind the schedule. How I wished I am more strict on myself. Well, I don't know whether all of you ever felt this, I am pretty sure you guys had/have a time where you feel that you need more rest, you have been working hard for the past few weeks/months, so you think you deserve this 'rest'. I have that feeling for a long time already. Hah senang cerita, pemalas la kan. Procrastination.

Honestly? I know I have been like this since forever. The new term started in early July. So 6 weeks have passed. I only picked up the pace at the fourth week. I think. Or was it later? I don't know. But not 100%. I still slack around. There are times where I didn't realized that the datelines are so near, and there are times where I only realized that there's an assignment due in a few hours and I haven't started anything.

Its been awhile since the last time I actually sat down to see all my datelines, jotting down stuffs in my VUWSA planner, read something useful when I am free. And my parents have to pester me in completing a 4-pages borang for a month. A freaking month. Which actually I can only do it in 2 nights with complete required documents attached to it. Apparently the scanner decided not to work on me tonight.

Let's hope it will work later. I'll go straight to Nonie's room to scan it right after this.

Okay let's see... I have been an active in crapping for this month. Except for this whole one week. Every single morning I opened this page. The Create Post page. And yet I can't type out anything in the box. I was telling myself "c'mon farah. write something. find something to blab"

And I can't. I just can't.

So I go through my days with movies, and more movies. And I cook some food to eat. Nonie is sick so I am taking care of her now. How I wished she's better so she can go out with me :( And I hang out more often. I spend the day time walking in town. Sometimes alone, sometimes with a friend as company. I had fun. I was in tears, in laughter. I was calm. Had some great conversations. A lot has been running through my mind. Well I love to think too much kan. Ah well. And it strikes me, that I have only 2 months plus before my degree ends (given I passed this term's papers... amin).

Degree dah nak habis? Whoa.

And Aqilah, 2 months left, and I am scared. I pretend not to feel scared :p Time flies so fast kan?

I am trying to give myself another year of schooling, then off I go, into the workforce.

I am not ready for this.

and yes. I am pretty sure next year is going to be different. Honestly? I feel the difference now. No need to wait til next year. They are getting clearer. I sometimes hate myself for thinking too much. Things that I'm worried of because they might happen, slowly becoming a reality.

This week also has been the 'bayar puasa' week. Ibu laughed when she knew I am fasting now. She asked "why so late?". Well, I just laughed back. The plans to fast during winter didn't quite worked out. Too busy I guess I can't risk myself having days of lacking the energy, and also blood.

Oh speaking of which, I think I am still anemic. And I don't care to eat the iron pills. I kinda live with this tiredness. Sometimes I feel like fainting but since I am still under control, I just let it be.

Anyway,

The movie choices I had for this week. I watched The Dark Knight for the second time, and I got the nice seat, and good company. We always had fun in the cinema didn't we Aqilah? To my surprise, the cinema is still full although The Dark Knight is on screen for quite awhile already. Let's hope it'll beat Titanic. Wait let's go check out..

Ranked the second. Still cannot beat Titanic. Dammit.

Seriously what about Titanic that made everybody love watching?

Okay other than that, I watched I am Legend, Awake, Meet the Spartans, Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants, Mr Beans Holiday, A Walk to Remember, Disturbia, Almost-half of Zombie Kampung Pisang, Monty Python & the Holy Grail (I got bored this time. But I still laughed... hehe), Imagine Me & You, Tristan & Isolde (like... finally!) and Before Sunrise (Haha now I can see things more clearly. I am so going to watch Before Sunset again). Oh I forgot, watched Spiderman on TV too. Thats 14 including The Dark Knight. Like 2 a day? Okay I break my own record.

What other out-of-the-norms thing I did? I had 4 bubble teas in just a week, and I think this is something not really normal for me too. I wasn't a fan. Til I don't know when, suddenly it becomes my favourite.

I replayed Tristan & Isolde's scenes the whole night last night. I don't know. It feels sad watching that movie. Depressing alright. But I still watch it anyway. Maybe its the look at Tristan's face when he suffers and trying to hide em at the same time, his words, knowing all the sacrifices he made despite the pain he has to go through. They made me feel like watching it again, and again.

Why someone like "Tristan" only exists in movies?

Or the guy in Imagine Me & You. The husband who has been cheated by his wife who suddenly realized she loves a girl. He's so sweet, and its sad that the wife likes another woman. Or Landon Carter in A Walk to Remember. There are a few other characters that I love while watching those movies. Okay maybe they exist in this real world, but seriously, they're rare. Haha. I know, its mean for me to say that. Maybe I haven't really met one. So I can't really tell right. Plus, I have lived for only 20 years. Not that long to say such things.

Too much of movies. I am starting to live in a fantasy. *snap snap* I really have to get back to the reality.

But that made me think, if my life is being filmed, will it be one interesting movie? Will my character will be remembered forever? Will it gives a huge impact to other people? I really hope so. I have learn a lot about life. I have been thinking hard. This week, I kinda have some conclusions about life. about people. I feel like writing a book you know, haha. Okay that's a joke :p Not funny right?

Anyway, I think I should sleep now. Tomorrow is going to be my last day fasting before the real fasting month comes.

This is really long. And I don't know whether it sums up how I feel for the whole week. Basically I just blabbed whatever I feel like saying.

its 12:38 am. Exactly one hour and 10 minutes from the time I started this entry.

I should stop. Probably just start another entry if I feel like writing more.

Lets hope the remaining week before the school starts will still be sunny. Cuz I really want to have that ice-cream-sitting-at-the-harbour time again.