cause there is no guarantee, that this life is easy.

Currently listening to Miley Cyrus' When I look at you.
 
How about this.

You were totally lost. Everything were pitch black, so you can't see anything. It feels like a very long road to find the light. Then you keep on walking, not knowing what's in front. Not knowing how to find your way out and whether you are heading to the right direction. You just keep on moving. You felt tired, like awfully tired as there have been only sleepless nights as you don't want to waste time. You told yourself, "no, have to finish this once and for all". You can't waste them as time is precious; the longer time you are taking, the higher the risk.

Well, after all the hard work, you felt like you can't walk any longer, but you are starting to see some light. So that makes you happy, although it is quite a distance. So you put your 110 % energy (altho all of them have drained out, so you are restless) to go faster.

Then, you are closer, and closer... and closer to the light.

With a smile, you run.

And then you tripped... and fell on the hard floor.

Then you woke up... and realized... that everything is black - you are back to square one. You were actually not even moving. It is just a dream..

...and the time is running out. Almost completely. 

Sucks right? And do you wanna know what's worse?

When what happens to you actually affects some people. Badly.

I feel like a failure right now. What's left is just, optimism. To keep moving forward. To keep on breathing, and to make things right.

A few days left before December. I have to keep on swimming and keep my head on the surface. I can't let myself drown.

Oh my.