Just have to admit this.

So I just reached one year milestone. Alhamdulillah =) Maybe the next is the third year? Thinking about it just made me... cringe a little you know. Because

1. I can feel my performance is definitely deteriorating. Currently am looking for ways to get back on track. And this feeling just freaking me out. I know it is temporary. But yeah. Still scary.

2. I am afraid that one day I'll be celebrating as if I am in a relationship with it. Like you know, anniversaries? Although now I can see myself heading there. Okay maybe this could be the reason for #1.

I better think fast. And I must get back on track. Time to re-strategize.