I got a problem and I don't know what to do about it, even if I did I don't know if I will quit but I doubt it, I'm taken by the thought of it.

Currently listening to Ne-yo's Because of You


My travelling wallet was abandoned til last week.
Cuz finally I get to fly to the Borneo! Okay can tick that off my bucket list. I know, I am proud to be Malaysian, but so not proud of the fact that I've never been to certain places in Malaysia like Sabah, Sarawak, Kelantan & Terengganu. Boo Hoo.

Anyway let's save the KK journey for next time shall we? Back to my story...

While waiting for boarding time, I was going through that travel wallet. I forgot that I've been keeping some of my 'memories' there; like flight tickets, movie tickets, theater tickets, rugby tickets, concert tickets, my EFTPOS, my stamp cards for bubble teas, smoothies and coffees (or in my case is chocolate - I'm more of a chocolate person), some 'butterflies' from the Coldplay concert... pretty much it sums up the things I did when I was in NZ.

So I was excited and all the memories kept on rushing back in. Feels like I traveled thru time for a bit.

And my mom, being the mother started to point out how I can strive better in Uni if I don't play around too much. I agree with her. I mean c'mon, I know I can do better, definitely. If I pay attention more and if I put more passion into it. To me I've tried working hard for it, but I admit that I lack of passion when it comes to things I study back in Uni.

I paused for awhile. Then I realised something else. And I told her one thing

"Well Ibu, for me it was time well spent."

 I don't know. I know that I could've done better at Uni cuz I was this one annoying ambitious freak.

But I never regret how I spend my time over there. All these memories I have.

They're my most prized possessions when I'm living in NZ.

And to this date, I feel so blessed to graduate within my expected time to graduate. heh.

Alhamdulillah.

Next week is graduation week again. So I'm feeling more nostalgic than ever. Have I talked about stuff we do on the graduation week back in 2008? I can't recall. If I haven't maybe I will :)

The year end countdown.

It's the day to be remembered. always. I may have another chance to do this again. But I don't think I will. This is going to be the first and the last. Although the fact that I didn't get to parade properly make me want to do this again, but I don't know. I just want to keep the memories just between us. My closest friends in Wellington and I.

Well, let's just wait and see. By the way, I have better pictures of me. I know, this one looks a bit... inappropriate. But personally I find this picture very alive. That's why I love it. Once I have developed all pics, I'll post em all in FB.

The first weekend in Malaysia was spent with them. The times I feel it is okay for them to call me "Kak Farah". There are also the times when I can't help myself but to correct them just to make me feel younger. Haha. That's only my reflect reaction. Honestly, I feel 2 days is NOT ENOUGH! Wishing that we have more days. With every morning spent with that 'Senaman Malaysia'. Giler cool okay. I am not sure of the name but I guess that's what they call it. Reminded me of the days with budak2 Bahtera Budaya.

I just hope that we could spend at least another day more. They're just like family, so I can't get enough of being with them. Their behavior, reactions, sporting-ness, giler-ness. Best. Just like old times.

Hah. Tomorrow, I mean this Morning, I am going to spend the whole day with the peeps I love spending time with. Hah, I cannot wait! I miss Janda Baik so much. The fresh air, the green scenery, the cooling stream, and the people who are going to be there with me... =) Tak sabar nye...

*sigh* I have been quiet. Well, its not that my days have been really plain. No, instead, they're very eventful. But I refuse to share, not now. Not yet I guess. But I don't think they're gonna be interesting if I want to share em now. Nak cerita pon dah takda mood. Heh.

Right now. I am concentrating on the days ahead. The year 2008 is ending. So is the year 1429 (Hijriah Calendar). I am planning to get serious with my resolutions. Although all this while, I keep on saying resolutions are meant to be broken. I am trying to stop that mantra. I need a change, at least. As much as I hate changes, well, I can't stop them from not happening right? Especially when right now, I am in a transition of life. It feels a bit sucky, really. Its exactly the time where I feel like running away from reality. And live in a fantasy. Escaping reality sounds like the perfect plan. Like just sleep away and live in my dreams. And have someone like Edward Cullen (or the closest to him) as my boyfriend. Yes, people I finally watched it just now Was seated at the front. The first row, hows that? But its worth it. Puas hati. I like the movie. Especially the baseball game. The best! I can join all of u to drool now. Ha ha ha! And I think I can start reading now =).

Okay back to what I was blabbing about. Escaping reality sounds really good. But apparently that is never an option. Darn it.

I have a few resolutions in mind, but I don't think I am going to disclose it for now. Probably I have to be precise first. And I definitely have to write em somewhere. I need to remember them, and remember them by heart. I am turning 21. So NO MORE fooling around.

I found a new toy. R4 card for my NDS. Giler puas hati okay. The best part: I've downloaded "Mortal Combat". Played it. Just like the PC Game. PUAS HATI GILER! I have been wasting time with my NDS. sheesh. Let me get over the Twilight fever and this Mortal Combat fever first, then I'll concentrate on life.

Hah. I am escaping, well, I am trying to. Maybe just for another day. Try not to let the fever control me. heh.

Anyway, yeah I forgot to make this statement: peeps, I am already in Malaysia. I apologize for not informing anybody. I am in the process of collecting phone numbers. Its so hard to get to you guys without your numbers!! Do find me okay! I am planning to be in touch with many people as I can.

Okay I better get some sleep.

Good night everyone!

By the way, please remind me this:

"Think less and love your life more"

Always.