Just the thought of you can drive me wild, Ohh you make me smile :)

currently listening to Uncle Kracker's Smile

I just feel like blogging.

Warning: this post is pretty long. Haram Maklum.

Listening to : Katy Perry's One of the Boys

I am supposed to do some catch-ups with my studies. Honestly? I feel so left behind this trimester because I have too much to read and being the person who doesn't like to read, you know, its hard for me to keep up.

Apparently one of my papers that I am taking requires me to read a lot! and do a lot of questioning along the way. Another one just requires me to read a lot too, so that I can understand to do the workings later on. The lecturer assumed that I still have my knowledge on stuff that I learned a year and a half ago. Which for me, is not easy as I am so forgetful. One more paper requires me to write a lot. I also have some things to complain on this paper, but at the same time I think I am enjoying this class more than how much I can complain. Probably because its pretty relaxing. As compared to the other two.

Well, don't get me wrong. Its not that I hate the other two, they're just much much more difficult for me to handle as I have problems keeping up with the readings. And I was the one who chose to do all these, and so far I find all three subjects interesting. That should be good yes?

As I said earlier, one subject requires me to question on stuff, which I bet you know what subject it is. The problem with me is, I am so used to being told this and that, and I followed, most of the times, without questioning why. Probably because before I started to take up elective papers, the stuff that I am learning were mostly factual. I mean even if its subjective the lecturer will help you out by giving out all possible situations that make you use your common sense to understand, and somehow have some generic answers to them when the exam comes.

While in this subject, it is more to questioning why this and why that. They are the stuff that sometimes you do have questions on them but you don't exactly say it out loud, or in my case, usually I'll ended up with "maybe they are the way they are" or "they are what they are". I will come to terms with myself that things are meant to be the way they are meant to be. So I become more easily accepting towards things.

Maybe because I don't know much to the extent that I can start arguing. That's why this subject has many readings.

and I don't know when I can start keeping my momentum of reading all these stuff.

Maybe I should go out and stay in the library for me to read stuff. But I bet I will get bored easily and just stop reading and stare out of the window, or probably just enjoy the songs that were played in my iPod.

Or maybe I should go to Gloria Jeans and have something, and bring the book to the store and read while having my usual mango chiller and my sushi/ quiche. Its been awhile since I have that on my weekly routine. Yeah, been busy with fasting, so I don't go out that much... so sad. I miss my weekly sushi as well... yeah since tomorrow is my day off, I think I should do it! but then, I am sure I'll be tempted with the free mags at Borders. Well, who can resist free mags reading?

Ah well, I should just bring the book. Probably I will read at least a bit. That should be good enough :)

Because I don't think I'll do anything with my laptop right in front of me. Just now I managed to do a (very) little catch ups, and that's it. Plus now I have many things that I have to do online; Facebook has so many games applications (which most of them that I really hooked up with are Playfish's like Restaurant City, Country Story, Crazy Planet, and Pet Society), and miss bimbo; NaneeDoll needs constant attention from me okay. And there's youtube, or The Big Bang Theory, or the OC.

How can I concentrate???

Oh speaking of which, I have finished The OC season 1 for now. I don't wanna look for Season 2 (onwards) yet because I won't do any work if I have them.

Watching the OC again just made me realized how much I love and still loving the series. Back then, I was so into it, I blogged about it, I talked about it with friends, I googled for the photos, and photos of Adam Brody =P. And after watching them a week ago, I was in that "bubble" again. I became a bit obsessed, I googled to refresh my mind with the other seasons, and looked for the bloopers. Just the week before that I was into Harry Potter; watched all 6 movies (1 per day) and read the 7th book for the second time. Downloaded the 6th movie game for NDS and finish playing them in 2 days (or so). So that should explain why I don't bother to update my blog until recently. huhu.

Back to the OC, after watching the first season I find that I am more into Ryan's character than Seth. I guess its because they don't concentrate on Seth's life as much as Ryan's. Or probably my taste has changed over time. I don't know. Maybe I should watch the other 3 seasons to find out.

But I still have that celebrity crush on Adam Brody :P haha.

Now I feel like buying the box set for my own collection. So much of thinking that I won't be collecting dramas. But they look so cool.

But there's so many things on my list that I wanna buy. Like this:

been planning to get this for a long time, but never got the chance to grab it. Probably will check it out (again, and again) tomorrow.

I also have plans to get myself a pet. aaa I know, I am crazy right? Firstly, we're not sure whether we can have a pet. But I reckon the one who lives in a cage will be fine so I am looking at the Guinea Pigs. Well, a good substitute for cats (cuz I don't wanna cage cats...), that's what I think. But I don't know yet. What do you think? Is it easy to keep guinea pigs?

If only money grows on trees.

Okay this is totally out of the main topic.

So I guess I'll be bringing my book to Gloria Jeans tomorrow. Most likely. Haha.

And this is damn long. And I should go to bed; its nearly 2 am.

And maybe I should put some "long post warning at the top"...

Ah well, good night :)

Holiday Wrap-up.

Currently on repeat: BEP's I Got a Feeling.

1. I think after my first year here, this is another long winter holiday. Almost a month. And... apparently I stayed home the whole time!

2. I did some beading.

3. And some doodling. I think I am going to start filling up the huge Jordi Labanda notebook with the doodles seriously. Sometimes I wish I have my own Moleskine. The small soft cover one I mean. Because the JL notebook that I have is too big. But then the notebook is too nice for me to just scribble up some notes. Definitely I must fill it with stuff that I find memorable and worth to keep. hee.

4. I did my marathon of TV Series to catch up with Pushing Daisies and Supernatural.

It's sad that 2nd season will be their last. And so far I just watched half of them. Since they're finishing soon, so I am going to take it easy. Probably will just watch them from time to time.

But yeah, watching this movie will definitely made me feel like baking a pie for myself. And since I am too lazy to look for strawberries and cherries, so I went to Sweet Mother's Kitchen. To me their pies are the best.

In 2-3 days, I managed to finish up both Season 3 and 4. Well, honestly I find the storyline is so twisted and way too much for my liking, but surprisingly I still love it. I just love the two brothers. Can't wait for Season 5 to come out soon, and I am happy that I am back on track.

5.

I make it a point to have lunch/tea at Gloria Jeans the Borders to have my weekly dose of magazines, my favorite vegetarian quiche and mango chiller. Yeah although its cold outside, I just cannot resist the chiller.

Oh this picture was taken last year, by Haz. And no that's not mango chiller. Haha.

6. Since all of my holiday plans were canceled, I decided to spend the money on the unnecessary stuff happily. Like these:

Got these from Diva. I find them pretty cute, and yeah kononnye nak make these as self-reminders; to live life, and try to make peace with myself, and at the same time to find ways to spread some peace-ness around the world. haha. WTV. They're just so cute and cool to me :)
and I got myself this:

Yes I think I am out of my mind. Probably won't be wearing this until the 19th/20th of November. Haha. I don't own both of them. So guess which one is mine? It's obvious right?

Oh and I bought more tees this time. So much of trying to avoid them. But this time I opted for oversized ones, suddenly I just have the urge to go more laid back and towards street style. I even bought some neon-colored tights. And honestly don't know when I am going to put them on. haha.

Probably I should look for skinny jeans, and some new plain and long (longer than the ones I already have) cardies. And somehow I feel like getting myself some funky leg warmers.

Got myself a pair of presentable walking shoes. Finally. But until today, it is still "eating" my feet. I still have problems of getting a perfectly good pair. Can anybody drop me some tips please? It's so sad. Hopefully it'll expand soon.

I did this to my NDS:

Okay maybe this is not as cool as GelaSkins, but it is cheaper, and I think it's not too bad.Thanks to Smiggle. It's more like a kid stationery shop, but I just love the shop! I even bought a pack of cute playing cards. Oh I kinda making a collection of playing cards. Started it since 2nd year. But I haven't really started serious collecting yet.

I even shopped some beads online, and now I am looking for this:

But I am still contemplating. By far I like colorsplash the best. I don't know why. Should I?

7. I watched tons of movies, as usual. Haha. And I find myself connected to the character Cristina in Vicky Cristina Barcelona. Probably will do a post on this. I bought Spirited Away DVD two days ago so terubat rindu kat movie tu. Hehe. I just watched Once and I like it. The soundtrack is just so nice! Another movie that I love is Speed Racer. Bring back the memories of my childhood. haha.

8. Went to Japan Festival yesterday and was disappointed. Was expecting more sushi stalls, and more craft items on sale. The fashion show is cute though :)

9. I have a little bit more to blog but my time is up so I am just going to leave it as it is. Other stuffs were not interesting pon. I have to go out for awhile, although the weather is pretty sucky now. Civic just called to inform that all Harry Potter movies is available for me so I have to go and pick up. We're gonna do marathon soon. I don't know when. Must be before the 6th movie comes out.

p/s: to add up : 10. Surprisingly I find my holidays were not as bad as I think. Alhamdulillah.

A new year. A new (mis)adventure.

**WARNING: This post is reallyyy looongg!**

This is my first post for the year 2009 (uuuu....)

I am late. 5 days late. I was planning to blog on the eve of the new year, but apparently this time, I went out with my brothers, the Ellis and Aidzat. We wanted to watch the fireworks this time.

And we chose the nearest to us, the place where we believed will pull off the new year fireworks show.

Putrajaya

Arrived as early as 10, with McD foods on our hands, we picnic-ed at the side of a huge lake in Cyberjaya. According to Adam, this is one of the nicest spots to take fireworks photos in Putrajaya. As they usually launched them at the PICC.

We were too early.

But thats fine with us. Soon after that more people will start filling up the spaces, and we wanted a really good view. We talked and joked around, teasing one another (the usual thing that we do together), and since the boys have their camera ready, we camwhore-d.

That was fun. Really =)

The fun made us unaware of the time, and by the time we realized of it, it was 10 to midnight. So we sat down, took our positions, Adam and Luqman set up their cameras, and we waited.

Til 5 past midnight.

Called Fash as she was on the other side of the lake as soon as we saw some lights sparkling in the sky.

Maybe they're warming up. So we thought.

FN = Fash Nadiah

FM: Fash! Nampak tak tadi sikit?
FN: Haha tau takk, tadi jumpa police die kata mana ada fireworks kat sini!!
FM: But last year ada...
FN: Not this year tho! Giler lawak ok.

We all laughed. We have fooled ourselves. THERE'S NO FIREWORKS IN PUTRAJAYA!

The "small show" we saw was just from a group of people, not the real one.

But I wondered why the police standing by near us. Why didn't they warn all of us?? There were even foreigners waiting!

So yeah the plan to watch fireworks on the New Year eve has failed... again.

We don't want to ruin our already-ruined-halfway night. Since we're in Putrajaya, we decided to camwhore a bit more before going back. Plus, Putrajaya has some beautiful (and they're more beautiful at night) photo spots that we can't miss.

We made our move to Old Town Cyberjaya to meet Aiman and Addin - another two of our neighbours.

Then to our first destination; the bridge. I can't remember the name of the bridge. Haha. Shame on me.

We hung out for awhile. Watched people. There's a bunch of chinese kids dancing around. We felt like joining them, but we can't understand what they're saying; they're like playing a game actually. So we continued with our main intention to go there; photoshoot.

Snap snap snap!

One pose after another, then we stopped thinking its enough for now. We have to get on to another spot. We lingered around the bridge talking and laughing with each other while waiting Adam pack.

He finished packing. and he closed the boot.

Then suddenly Adam was cursing.

We were all like... whats up???

AB: I left the key in the car... *%$#@%

Then we spent the time trying to break into his car. and of course, we FAILED. Adam still attempted many ways trying to get into the car, while Luqman and the rest of us tried to convince him to go home and get the spare keys. Thats the last thing on his mind; our parents are home. He'll surely get something from them if they find out.

He finally surrender. Thank God Aiman was with us, so he drove him back to our house to get the keys.

While the rest of us; Luqman, Elli Farhana, Elli Famira, Aidzat, Addin and I hung out at the sidewalk. Playing stupid games (but fun) like "Bom Ba Chik" and "Botol". Then Farhana realized that she has her old playing cards in her bag, so we started to play Hi Jack!

And that was a very hilarious game!

Again, I thank God for giving us such a great time when we're actually facing some stressful situations. The company were very cool too, so its not so hard to entertain them =) Sama2 giler pon. Again, time went by quickly.

After almost 45 minutes (I think...) Adam arrived with the set of spare keys in his hands. So we all got into the car, and went to the next spot. Snapped more photos. Were chased out by the guards. But I wonder why, there were other people too, and I don't see why they shoo-ed us away. Its not that we're doing something bad.

Ah well.

Then our parents started to call. Shoot. Its already 3 am. So we rushed home.

And the journey ends with smiles all over our faces. That's relieving. I was scared that they didn't have fun (considering what we went through). This was the first time we hung out together, Elli and her siblings, with us.

So that's how I started my year. And that makes me wonder, how 2009 will turn out to be like?

All I can hope for is a happy ending. Amin :)

Thats all for now. I need to start developing my graduation photos, and get the most recent photos from abang. Then maybe I'll open another topic.

For now, I'd like to wish everyone, Happy New Year, Selamat Menyambut Maal Hijrah. May the new year brings you happiness and greatness in life.

The year end countdown.

It's the day to be remembered. always. I may have another chance to do this again. But I don't think I will. This is going to be the first and the last. Although the fact that I didn't get to parade properly make me want to do this again, but I don't know. I just want to keep the memories just between us. My closest friends in Wellington and I.

Well, let's just wait and see. By the way, I have better pictures of me. I know, this one looks a bit... inappropriate. But personally I find this picture very alive. That's why I love it. Once I have developed all pics, I'll post em all in FB.

The first weekend in Malaysia was spent with them. The times I feel it is okay for them to call me "Kak Farah". There are also the times when I can't help myself but to correct them just to make me feel younger. Haha. That's only my reflect reaction. Honestly, I feel 2 days is NOT ENOUGH! Wishing that we have more days. With every morning spent with that 'Senaman Malaysia'. Giler cool okay. I am not sure of the name but I guess that's what they call it. Reminded me of the days with budak2 Bahtera Budaya.

I just hope that we could spend at least another day more. They're just like family, so I can't get enough of being with them. Their behavior, reactions, sporting-ness, giler-ness. Best. Just like old times.

Hah. Tomorrow, I mean this Morning, I am going to spend the whole day with the peeps I love spending time with. Hah, I cannot wait! I miss Janda Baik so much. The fresh air, the green scenery, the cooling stream, and the people who are going to be there with me... =) Tak sabar nye...

*sigh* I have been quiet. Well, its not that my days have been really plain. No, instead, they're very eventful. But I refuse to share, not now. Not yet I guess. But I don't think they're gonna be interesting if I want to share em now. Nak cerita pon dah takda mood. Heh.

Right now. I am concentrating on the days ahead. The year 2008 is ending. So is the year 1429 (Hijriah Calendar). I am planning to get serious with my resolutions. Although all this while, I keep on saying resolutions are meant to be broken. I am trying to stop that mantra. I need a change, at least. As much as I hate changes, well, I can't stop them from not happening right? Especially when right now, I am in a transition of life. It feels a bit sucky, really. Its exactly the time where I feel like running away from reality. And live in a fantasy. Escaping reality sounds like the perfect plan. Like just sleep away and live in my dreams. And have someone like Edward Cullen (or the closest to him) as my boyfriend. Yes, people I finally watched it just now Was seated at the front. The first row, hows that? But its worth it. Puas hati. I like the movie. Especially the baseball game. The best! I can join all of u to drool now. Ha ha ha! And I think I can start reading now =).

Okay back to what I was blabbing about. Escaping reality sounds really good. But apparently that is never an option. Darn it.

I have a few resolutions in mind, but I don't think I am going to disclose it for now. Probably I have to be precise first. And I definitely have to write em somewhere. I need to remember them, and remember them by heart. I am turning 21. So NO MORE fooling around.

I found a new toy. R4 card for my NDS. Giler puas hati okay. The best part: I've downloaded "Mortal Combat". Played it. Just like the PC Game. PUAS HATI GILER! I have been wasting time with my NDS. sheesh. Let me get over the Twilight fever and this Mortal Combat fever first, then I'll concentrate on life.

Hah. I am escaping, well, I am trying to. Maybe just for another day. Try not to let the fever control me. heh.

Anyway, yeah I forgot to make this statement: peeps, I am already in Malaysia. I apologize for not informing anybody. I am in the process of collecting phone numbers. Its so hard to get to you guys without your numbers!! Do find me okay! I am planning to be in touch with many people as I can.

Okay I better get some sleep.

Good night everyone!

By the way, please remind me this:

"Think less and love your life more"

Always.