You never really can fix my heart.

Currently on repeat: Demi Lovato's Fix a Heart

It's probably what's best for you
I only want the best for you
And if I'm not the best, then you're stuck

I try to sever ties and I,
Ended up with wounds to bind
Like you're pouring salt in my cuts

And I just ran out of band-aids
I don't even know where to start
'Cause you can't bandage the damage,
You never really can fix a heart

Even though I know what's wrong,
How can I be so sure
If you never say what you feel, feel?

I must have held your hand so tight,
You didn't have the will to fight
I guess you needed more time to heal

Baby I just ran out of band-aids
I don't even know where to start
'Cause you can't bandage the damage
You never really can fix a heart

You must be a miracle walker,
Swearin' up and down,
You can't fix what's been broken, yeah
Please don't get my hopes up, no no
Baby, tell me how could you,
Be so cruel?

It's like you're pouring salt on my cuts

Baby, I just ran out of band-aids
I don't even know where to start
'Cause you can't bandage the damage
You never really can fix a heart
Baby, I just ran out of band-aids
I don't even know where to start

'Cause you can't bandage the damage
You never really can fix a heart
Oh no no no no
You never really can fix a heart
Oh no no no no
You never really can fix heart

You never really can fix my heart


T_T

Do you think you can find it? Better than you had it?

Currently-on-repeat: OneRepublic's Say (All I Need)



It always feel like this song is taunting me. And yet I cannot stop listening to it.

Do you know where your heart is?

Do you think you can find it?
Or did you trade it for something
Somewhere better just to have it?

Do you know where your love is?
Do you think that you lost it?
You felt it so strong, but
Nothing's turned out how you wanted

Well, bless my soul
You're a lonely soul
Cause you won't let go
Of anything you hold

Well, all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head

Do you know what your fate is?
And are you trying to shake it?
You're doing your best and
Your best look
You're praying that you make it

Well, bless my soul
You're a lonely soul
Cause you won't let go
Of anything you hold

Well, all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head
I said I all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head

Do you think you can find it?
Do you think you can find it?
Do you think you can find it?
Better than you had it
Do you think you can find it?
Do you think you can find it?
Do you think you can find it?
Yeah, better than you had it (Better than you had it)

I said I all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head
I said I all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head

Whenever the end is
Do you think you can see it?
Well, until you get there
Go on, go ahead and scream it
Just say it

Dan aku memang penakut.

Dan aku memang penakut
Mengakui cinta kepadamu
Seribu kali ku cuba ucapkan
Dia bersama mu
Kau bukan milikku
Dan engkau pun tahu
Kau bukan milikku.

Currently on repeat; Yuna's penakut.
It's my fave in the album.

The New Adventures of Farah Mexx and Puding...?

I think I am going to start an adventure with Puding. I don't know how exactly I am going to start with. But its definitely going to be one little project of mine :)

Anyway, I re-downloaded this song. Miss listening to it, and I wonder how I lost the song before.

The Lighthouse Family's High - currently on repeat

When you're close to tears remember
Some day it'll all be over
One day were gonna get so high
And though its darker than December
Whats ahead is a different colour
One day were gonna get so high

And at
The end of the day
Well remember the days
We were close to the edge
And well wonder how we made it through
And at
The end of the day
Well remember the way
We stayed so close to till the end
Well remember it was me and you

cause we are gonna be forever you and me
You'll always keep me flying high in the sky of love

Don't you think its time you started
Doing what we always wanted
One day were gonna get so high
cause even the impossible is easy
When we got each other
One day were gonna get so high

And at
The end of the day
Well remember the days
We were close to the edge
And well wonder how we made it through
And at
The end of the day
Well remember the way
We stayed so close to till the end
Well remember it was me and you

cause we are gonna be forever you and me
You will always keep me flying high in the sky of love

High, high, high, high...

Evergreen.

There are times when I just feel like listening to instrumental music, or classical. Like right now, I am putting Debussy's Clair de Lune on repeat.

Its soothing obviously, and helps me into thinking more clearly. No distractions of words, just beautiful music.

But I find classical/instrumental music at first, not as catchy as the ones I usually listen to - all those pop and rock songs, the ones with meaningful lyrics or loud and good music. Somehow it needed something I called "the perfect setting" for me to notice it. Like maybe when you are alone, walking on the streets or on the bus enjoying the surroundings, watching other people and day dreaming at the same time. Or when you are alone in the room doing nothing but just lying down and relax. And when you noticed it, instantly it'll become one of your favorite stuff to listen to. Often, I put Coldplay's Postcards from Far Away on repeat - good stuff. Even better if you listen to Chris Martin playing it live. So much better. The best, in fact. Okay I am bragging. Sorry.

Anyway, that wasn't the main intention of why I am writing this post. I wanted to just update my blog. It's been awhile. I didn't even make a "Merdeka post" for my dear country Malaysia. We celebrated our 52nd Independence Day on August 31st. I actually didn't celebrate it so much. I just twitted it, and post some stuff over Tumblr. Oh now I am so into it. Been Tumblring almost everyday. I made the point to update it everyday. Just some photos, or some good words of wisdom or some good advices I found at other people's Tumblr, quotes that I found inspiring or maybe made me ponder from the movies I watched and music that I feel like sharing with people. It's been fun to see how people are updating themselves over Tumblr. Like short posts is the new long posts. Before this, I'd prefer reading other people blog posts - the long and entertaining ones. Well I still do blog hopping, especially to my friends' blogs. But yeah, pictures and short quotes are more catchy to my eye. Who doesn't like pretty pictures?

Oh I have to go. Will continue blogging later.

Sad Sunday Morning.

♥James McAvoy♥

I am currently is in the mood to watch his movies. Apparently most of the movies that I watched were depressing. First, the Atonement, then Becoming Jane. I should have seen them coming, I mean all the sad sad endings, but yeah, I didn't expect the movies to be too 'emotionally challenging'. Was thinking of re-watching "The Last King of Scotland", the 1st movie that made me noticed him (although I watched Narnia before this one, I never realized who's Mr Tumnus is. I guess the character didn't really caught my attention...) but then I don't wanna be more depressed so I didn't rent it out.

Maybe I should re-watch Penelope and Wanted. They're more fun ;D

I ♥ to watch him, and his expressions. He's really good. And his eyes! I hardly noticed people's eyes, but his, the piercing blue eyes, its so impossible not to notice them.

Ah well. The first week of holiday has ended, so I should stop wasting time and start catching up with my studies. This holiday has been quiet, and lovely at the same time. If only this is not the fasting month because if we're not fasting, I'll be looking out for some adventures. I longed to go to Mt. Ruapehu. I kinda miss snowboarding :( Since we are fasting, I choose to just stay home and relax.

Oh, while watching Penelope I discovered the new song that I've uploaded in my playlist - Hoppipolla by Sigur Ros. Was my "currently-on-repeat" song. But yeah I love everything about the song, cuz it makes me happy by just listening to it.

Hope you guys felt the same way too when you listen to this song. That's why I uploaded it on my blog - to spread all the happiness~!

But for now I stopped listening to it, as I found the new JoBros song - Much Better. Ah me love Nick Jonas! haha. So yeah this song is my "currently-on-repeat" song.

Anyway, sent off Husna today. She left for good, and I miss her already :(

That's the updates for now.. have a good Sunday everyone! Today is my kemas-rumah day. so gotta go!

My Life according to KRU

Using only songs from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions. Pass it on to 25 people you like (including me). You can't use the artist I used. Try not to repeat a song title. Repost as "My Life According to (ARTIST NAME)".

Pick Your Artist: KRU

KRU selamanya. ;D

Are you male or female? Babe

Describe yourself: Terhangat di pasaran

How do you feel? Aneh

Describe where you currently live: Di pintu syurga

If you could go anywhere, where would you go? Dihatimu

Your favourite form of transportation: Apa saja

Your best friends: Ooh la la!

Your favourite colour is: Negatif

What is the weather like? Luar biasa

Favourite time of day: Malam kita

If your life was a T.V. show, what would it be called? Fanatik

What is life to you? Untukmu

Your relationships: Di dalam dilemma

Your fear: Seperti yang ku jangka terjadi

What is the best advice you have to give? Persetankannya

If you could change your name, you would change it to: Cherrina (hahahah..)

Thought for the day: Janji tinggal janji

How I would like to die: Jangan lafazkan

My soul's present condition: Sempurna

My Motto: Mengerti

I like this quiz/survey. Kinda hard to do. Maybe next time I should post the same survey, but different artist. hehe. Oh and I just found out that Norman got married last week! woww! Lucky woman! 

And now, it's time to put KRU on repeat B-)

The cloud & rain.

It was sunny last week. We can go out without thick jackets, just the cardie and sometimes the days become warmer, even the cardie is not needed.

That was nice since it is still winter time. Most of us assumed Spring has come. But come to think of it, its halfway through August, so winter should be over, right?

And on Friday night WMSO organized WMSO Costume & Talent Night 2009.

Such a cool event. I was really looking forward to it because I never dressed up in a costume before. On Vivy's birthday I was just mixing-and-matching up stuff (which in the end I didn't really look like Tinkerbell), and since we've found the costume shop that has stuff with my sizes, I finally get to dress up in a costume! And to my surprise, I really didn't expect everyone will go all-out for the night! so KUDOS to all of you XD. I felt a bit under-dressed (although it was pretty daring), but I still love my own costume. hee hee. It gave me the hyper vibe! and to the WMSO Committee, thank you for organizing it.

Yes, that's me as one of my fave chocolates of all-time!

fun performances + and the kick-ass crowd = Awesome night!

And the very next day, after a sunny week, the clouds and the rain came to pay us a visit. According to the weather forecast, they're going to be here for the whole week.

Let's pray that its the sun's turn next week.

For now, its time to stay home, and start my readings. and do my homework.

and layan Snow Patrol.

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Snow Patrol's Run - currently on repeat

Have a good week before the holiday guys :)

p/s: more photos of Costume & Talent Night 2009, please click here.

Put me out of this misery, please.

Currently into this newly discovered song. Blue October's My Never. There are some songs from them that I really like (Hate Me, Into the Ocean) and this adds up to the list.

Stephenie Meyer, the author of the Twilight Saga was inspired by this song to write about how Jacob feels for Bella; the love that he has for her that can never be paid back. The one-way street thing.

Such a nice, beautiful song. I bet everyone, or maybe most of you will agree with me too. The song that is about a chapter of life. And most of the times, this chapter of life, if its being shared with others, it will be one of the greatest stories ever told.

It started with pain. The most painful thing you cannot bear. Worse than this headache and neck pain that I am having. And most of the times, it will end with a happy ending.

Like this Twilight Saga. Or the most recent movie that I just watched (but I haven't finish it because I think people love it too much, they watched it over and over until it has too many scratches) - Stardust.

And both movies, ended up with happy endings.

But actually the pain part is more meaningful; you learned a lot when you are in pain.

Anyway, enjoy the song :)

While I have to bear this weird head-neck pain. From what I googled just now, it seems that these are the symptoms for migraine. but I am not sure, because I am not stressed. But its bugging me for days. Ugh.

I am so getting myself good seats for G.I Joe tonight. Watched Public Enemies last week and that was hell for me. The second time I had to forced myself to sleep because seating too near to the screen makes me dizzy. But somehow its weird because I was okay when I watched The Dark Knight. or LOTR: The Return of the King. Probably because I was in the bigger cinema. The last time I had to sleep (or just closing my eyes) in a movie was Kingdom of Heaven. Another pretty good movie too, and it wasn't really a bad experience cuz I only closed my eyes for 5 minutes. Last week was worse, I had to sleep halfway through. But I am going to blame the seats; and myself for buying the tickets late.

*sigh*

I have to eat something. Later~!

My Lonely Song.

currently listening to : James Blunt's High

It's been awhile since the last time I listen to this song. I remembered, that the first time I got really hooked up with this song is during the first few weeks of my life in New Zealand. Maybe this is the song that I like to listen when I am lonely. Okay not right now, so happen the library shuffled to this song.

Suka la pulak dengar lagu ni. I am going to put it on repeat.

James Blunt - High

Beautiful dawn - lights up the shore for me.
There is nothing else in the world,
I'd rather wake up and see (with you).
Beautiful dawn - I'm just chasing time again.
Thought I would die a lonely man, in endless night.
But now I'm high; running wild among all the stars above.
Sometimes it's hard to believe you remember me.

Beautiful dawn - melt with the stars again.
Do you remember the day when my journey began?
Will you remember the end (of time)?
Beautiful dawn - You're just blowing my mind again.
Thought I was born to endless night, until you shine.
High; running wild among all the stars above.
Sometimes it's hard to believe you remember me.

Will you be my shoulder when I'm grey and older?
Promise me tomorrow starts with you,
Getting high; running wild among all the stars above.
Sometimes it's hard to believe you remember me

Maybe I should wake up for Subuh and don't go back to sleep to watch the sun comes out. Sometimes I wish I am determined enough to go out and rest myself/have a jog/have a walk at the park to see sunrise. Probably I can take beautiful pictures. Like this one:

I have posted this one before. Haha.

Anyway, since Monday, we've been watching Harry Potter movies. From the first until the fifth (which will be watched tonight) just for preparation for tomorrow's show. The movie comes out today, but since we're late in securing our tickets with good seats, we've decided to watch the movie tomorrow. I don't care, as long as I can watch Ron comfortably, I am more than happy =)

I think I may cry in this movie. You know why. It's gonna be one sad occasion.

Yeah right. Its hard for me to cry during movies. Probably I am too ego. Or maybe the quiz from facebook is right, I have a heart of a stone. Haha.

Have you guys watched the last episode of Ghost Season 2? Seriously, it's one damn crazy series. I love it a lot!! Cheryl Samad is damn good. Actually all of them are good! I like the cast very much XD

But i think that's the last episode. So sad, now I don't have any series to watch until September.

Probably I should look for The OC. Feast my eyes with my favorite Adam Brody *drool*

Oh, panggilan makan. Until next time.

Holiday Wrap-up.

Currently on repeat: BEP's I Got a Feeling.

1. I think after my first year here, this is another long winter holiday. Almost a month. And... apparently I stayed home the whole time!

2. I did some beading.

3. And some doodling. I think I am going to start filling up the huge Jordi Labanda notebook with the doodles seriously. Sometimes I wish I have my own Moleskine. The small soft cover one I mean. Because the JL notebook that I have is too big. But then the notebook is too nice for me to just scribble up some notes. Definitely I must fill it with stuff that I find memorable and worth to keep. hee.

4. I did my marathon of TV Series to catch up with Pushing Daisies and Supernatural.

It's sad that 2nd season will be their last. And so far I just watched half of them. Since they're finishing soon, so I am going to take it easy. Probably will just watch them from time to time.

But yeah, watching this movie will definitely made me feel like baking a pie for myself. And since I am too lazy to look for strawberries and cherries, so I went to Sweet Mother's Kitchen. To me their pies are the best.

In 2-3 days, I managed to finish up both Season 3 and 4. Well, honestly I find the storyline is so twisted and way too much for my liking, but surprisingly I still love it. I just love the two brothers. Can't wait for Season 5 to come out soon, and I am happy that I am back on track.

5.

I make it a point to have lunch/tea at Gloria Jeans the Borders to have my weekly dose of magazines, my favorite vegetarian quiche and mango chiller. Yeah although its cold outside, I just cannot resist the chiller.

Oh this picture was taken last year, by Haz. And no that's not mango chiller. Haha.

6. Since all of my holiday plans were canceled, I decided to spend the money on the unnecessary stuff happily. Like these:

Got these from Diva. I find them pretty cute, and yeah kononnye nak make these as self-reminders; to live life, and try to make peace with myself, and at the same time to find ways to spread some peace-ness around the world. haha. WTV. They're just so cute and cool to me :)
and I got myself this:

Yes I think I am out of my mind. Probably won't be wearing this until the 19th/20th of November. Haha. I don't own both of them. So guess which one is mine? It's obvious right?

Oh and I bought more tees this time. So much of trying to avoid them. But this time I opted for oversized ones, suddenly I just have the urge to go more laid back and towards street style. I even bought some neon-colored tights. And honestly don't know when I am going to put them on. haha.

Probably I should look for skinny jeans, and some new plain and long (longer than the ones I already have) cardies. And somehow I feel like getting myself some funky leg warmers.

Got myself a pair of presentable walking shoes. Finally. But until today, it is still "eating" my feet. I still have problems of getting a perfectly good pair. Can anybody drop me some tips please? It's so sad. Hopefully it'll expand soon.

I did this to my NDS:

Okay maybe this is not as cool as GelaSkins, but it is cheaper, and I think it's not too bad.Thanks to Smiggle. It's more like a kid stationery shop, but I just love the shop! I even bought a pack of cute playing cards. Oh I kinda making a collection of playing cards. Started it since 2nd year. But I haven't really started serious collecting yet.

I even shopped some beads online, and now I am looking for this:

But I am still contemplating. By far I like colorsplash the best. I don't know why. Should I?

7. I watched tons of movies, as usual. Haha. And I find myself connected to the character Cristina in Vicky Cristina Barcelona. Probably will do a post on this. I bought Spirited Away DVD two days ago so terubat rindu kat movie tu. Hehe. I just watched Once and I like it. The soundtrack is just so nice! Another movie that I love is Speed Racer. Bring back the memories of my childhood. haha.

8. Went to Japan Festival yesterday and was disappointed. Was expecting more sushi stalls, and more craft items on sale. The fashion show is cute though :)

9. I have a little bit more to blog but my time is up so I am just going to leave it as it is. Other stuffs were not interesting pon. I have to go out for awhile, although the weather is pretty sucky now. Civic just called to inform that all Harry Potter movies is available for me so I have to go and pick up. We're gonna do marathon soon. I don't know when. Must be before the 6th movie comes out.

p/s: to add up : 10. Surprisingly I find my holidays were not as bad as I think. Alhamdulillah.

Adding up a challenge for myself.

She paid a visit, and just left a couple of days ago to Auckland. Sunday is going to be her last day here. The reason why she's here? Backpacking, for a month, Alone.

How cool is that?

One of the things that I really want to do before I die is to travel alone. I mean not just boarding on a plane alone to meet other people you know when you arrived. I wanna go visit a place or several places, and stayed there for couple of days, or maybe a week, or weeks, or months (okay that is ambitious) and I don't care where exactly that I want to go, it can be just a small beautiful island in my home country, or somewhere so far away. But actually it's fun to go to the one which is far away, it's even better if you go to the place which you don't even know the language.

Okay I love to imagine myself going to a place where I don't even understand what they're talking about and actually found someone who's a very nice cute guy nice enough to show me around, and in the end we become lovers good friends. Like (everyone guessed it) in the movies.

Well, to be in a place like that, is a very good challenge actually. But yeah, that is pretty ambitious too. Ah, I don't care. Anywhere will do. I just want to do it alone.

But that's the question that I have to ask myself; do I have the guts to do it?

I realized, I was never really alone. Okay coming here years ago was one of the biggest step I've made and done; moving from my own home to live at a totally unfamiliar place full of strangers. But then it didn't take long, not even a day for me to find new friends to be with. Alhamdulillah, I thank God for the peeps of my own batch. Yeah that's the thing. The stuffs I do alone so far was just you know, going to classes, studying at the library in between classes, walking back home or to uni, settling stuffs, and the longest time I spent time with myself alone is to travel back to my home country, or to come back here after the holidays.

And yeah, I still have that 'uneasy feeling' of talking to strangers that I see/met randomly, like at the cafes or in the public transports. I will bring a book, or a magazine with me if I were to eat alone. So I can be the perfect shy-untalkative-girl if you strangers saw me alone. Like I don't favour social interactions. Like I am a loner.

Sometimes I wonder how my mom does it. You know, just simply talk to strangers sometimes. She's wayy too friendly than I am. I can be a really awkward kind of person, you know, the one that can give you a big dew drop at the back of the head (like the japanese animes, I don't know how to describe that thing) or maybe left you with a big harmonious crickets sounds as the background music. Basically, I am a slow starter. There are times where I can give you a fast start, but only if I feel comfortable with the surroundings.

So what if I am just alone in a big busy city with just strangers, no familiar faces around me? I bet that's going to be rough. Probably I'll just end up talking to birds, or the stray cats that I saw while walking.

Probably I'll just stay on one particular spot, the one that I feel most comfortable. That will most likely be the motel room or just the bed right? Haha. Exploring will just be out of my to-do list.

Okay I think that's too much. If I wanna do this, I just have to prepare myself. Be brave. Positive. And just have fun. I have to gather all my guts and just do it. But when will that be? I don't know. Let's see. I need to have money, so because of that I have to work. Obviously not in the near future lah.

Kak Shaz inspires me to do what she'd done. I mean, I always want to do it, and when she's here, it just encouraging me more. She's so brave, and until now, I feel so proud of her. To be able to do that alone.

To Kak Shaz (with hope you're reading this), I really hope you enjoyed your stay here. I mean, there were not many places that I showed you around, and I hope I was being a good host. I felt guilty for just leaving you at home/alone not doing anything much. And really hope you'll come again before I go back to Malaysia for good. And during my holidays ke. So I can really take you to see other further places, and travel with you together. It's been fun having you around, and I thank you for visiting me. It feels so nice having a family member to be close/near to me when I am thousands miles away from my number one home.

And I am soo glad that you really love this:

I know you'll miss this, and I don't mind drinking it for you everyday. Its so freaking awesome even I can't get enough of it. And it's been years. Haha.

Selamat pulang ke Tanahair =)

Okay I think I have written a long post. And I am quite pleased with myself for this. I just want to have this vibe of blogging to share my everyday lives in this blog. Once I went through the posts I had, I realized lately I have become a broken record, I keep on repeating stuffs.

Hopefully this one is not something that I have repeated tho =P

Speaking of traveling, I can't wait for my exams to end (altho I don't study that much, will get back on to the books later...) so I can plan my holidays! Should I go somewhere cold, but has a fantastic view and has the highest bungy place ever (Queenstown) or somewhere a lot warmer to see Juju in Brisbane?

hmm... but I have to find ka-ching! first... so sad.

p/s: I wonder why but I never get bored of The Click Five's Empty. It is on repeat now. Okay I need to study.

counting.

There's only one thing to do
Three words for you
I love you

There's only one way to say
Those three words
And that's what I'll do
I love you.

Plain White T's 1,2,3,4. - Currently on repeat

This was in my draft for the past few days. Wanted to say something more, after a few tries, it goes back to this.

a blank page, with a chorus of a song.

So I posted it anyway.

Oh, and it's not "currently on repeat" anymore. I started to "count" Feist's 1,2,3,4 pulak.

p/s: the lyrics of this song is cute, yes?

Learning to Fall

I could say that it's time, to let you go
I could say that, I'm moving on
Eighteen years was all I had to hold against my heart

I don't know if I can touch you, or if you're outta reach
I don't know if I can see you, even if I get to leave
I don't know if I'm on fire, or if you're made of sparks
I don't know if I'm that secret, that you'd never want to part, with... x2

Cos I just wanna fly, I just wanna take you by the hand,
Take you for a drive, show you how our life will never end
I just wanna fall
It's time for us, it's time to let us in

I wanna post up something, but then again the "writer's block" is back. God, I really need to get out of this. I can't even shed a tear now...

wonder what's happening to me. I can't seem to let em all out.


Anyway


enjoy this song. oh it's by Midnight Youth. Thanks Qilah for the album =)

It's a nice sunny Sunday!

U2's Walk On is currently on repeat.

Yes, finally the holiday has started. I am so happy! No waking up
early for classes. No going out to classes. In short, no classes! Haha.
I have plenty ideas on what I want to do for this mid-term break. I
want to go on a train ride. Long distance train ride. I wanna do my
beading and painting. I wanna watch as many movies as I can. That's
like my holiday ritual kan. I wanna start reading my new novel. And
finish it before the school starts. And I want to spend more time at
the beach when the weather is just perfect for me to be out.

Like today.

I am at the beach now. Drafting this. Will post it as soon as I get
back.

This is super relaxing. Qilah is reading New Moon right now, and
Husna is lying down, sun bathing. I just got my feet soaked in the
water - nice cooling water. Now the bottom of my pants are soaked too;
and now the beach sands are all over my pants and feet.

It feels so good to be able to spend my Sunday like this. Best giler.

I love Wellington.

I know most of my plans won't work out like how I want them to be.

So I'm gonna cherish today like it'll never last.

Happy holidays everyone!

Currently on repeat.

Tried to write a letter
In ink
Its been getting better
I think
I got a piece of paper
But its empty
Its empty
Click Five's Empty

Empty.

Sometimes the last thing you want comes in first,
Sometimes the first thing you want never comes,
I know, that waiting is all you can do,
Sometimes...
Aqualung's Strange & Beautiful - currently on repeat. together with Aqualung's If I fall, and Easier to Lie.

He's the most handsome fictional animated character I've ever seen in my whole life... so far. Watched him for the third time, and I never got bored of him, oh and the movie. Howl's Moving Castle. I always love Hayao Miyazaki's. I'll find time to finish the box set. One day.

The first time I watched this was when I was in my first year. That was... 2 years ago? And apparently I kinda forgot the storyline. So I refreshed my mind by watching it again this morning. and tiba2 rasa tak puas. So I watched it for the second time just now.

Thanks to Iynas for the movie. Altho it has been dubbed, for the sake of wanting to refresh my mind, I take it anyway.

yeah I don't quite like Japanese movies that have been dubbed. I prefer it to be in Japanese. Cuz it sounded weird to me, having it dubbed into English. And its kinda funny to know that Christian Bale did the voice over for Howl. Its like having Batman becomes some vain heartless guy.

You know what? I don't think I gt bored by this movie. Maybe not yet. I don't mind watching it again. Probably it'll take time.

Maybe I should re-watch Totoro and Spirited Away. That should be fun :)

Anyway, yeah I should be looking for jobs. but I want to spend time with lika. She's going back in 2 days.

whoa. How time flies. It feels like she just dropped me a message yesterday. Telling me that she's coming. When was that? 2 months ago?

How time flies.

hopefully the weather will be alright tomorrow. So that we can spend more time outside =) under the sun.

Okay I think I am going to stay in bed now. I should go to sleep. I need to save. Dah nak exceed. Puasa video streaming. Puasa download. Puasa internet.

And maybe I should really list down what I want to do for the whole summer. Cuz I know theres many things to do. So little time. I should try to choose what I think I can do. hmm..

I'm off. I wanna dream about Howl.

Okay this is crazy.

Too Lost in You.

Baby, I'm too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep, I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do

I'm too lost in you

Sugababes' Too Lost in You - currently on repeat.

Its nearly eleven and I am all sleepy and tired. Feels like crawling to the bed and slip under the duvet, dig my head into the pillows, hug the two (current) favorite things - hedwig and pudding (which sometimes will be unintentionally kicked out of the bed), close my eyes and let the whole body rest til the next morning.

How nice if I can do that n.o.w.

Probably its the cold weather and full stomach that made me feel that way. Well and of course, I am very tired right now. But I don't want to feel guilty. So I am prepared to open my eyes (even by force) til I feel that its enough for the day.

By the way, I have updated my play list. I even change the player. I find the new one very interesting and so cool! What do you guys think? I have some new recommendations that I have put onto the list. Try and look for anything with "The Section Quartet" or maybe "The String Quartet Tribute".

Thanks to Gossip Girl, I fell in love with the a new genre of music; The String Quartet. And more in love when they did tributes for my favorite bands. The Section Quartet was the one which have the nicest and coolest version of Time is Running Out. Check it out people! And from there, I discovered many other String Quartet tributes; they did for Coldplay, U2, Dashboard Confessional even Linkin Park and My Chemical Romance.

Give them a go and let me know if they stuck into your head :) k?

Okay I think this is enough for tonight. I better get back to my stuffs.


p/s: Oh, thank you Nana for the sangat sedap dinner tonight :)