Just like a song in my heart, Just like oil on my hands, Oh.. I do love you.

Currently listening to Corinne Bailey Rae's Just Like a Star

My sleeping pattern has gone haywire again. It'll be like, 2-3 hrs of (interrupted) sleep, then working full swing the next day. So what I'll do is to try to sleep a little bit early the next day - just to gain back the energy. Lately I have been "like walking on clouds" - I feel like floating. So I know I am losing a lot of my energy, and blood. Plus, I just can't stay awake if I don't have enough sleep the day before.

So there's this one night I wanted to do work, but the brain has decided to stop working, I figured it's time for me to at least get some rest. I told Firdaus to let me nap, and wake me up at midnight. I didn't lie down on my back as I thought this is just going to be a nap, and sitting may help me to wake up easily.

While I was napping Adam got back and not knowing of the situation, he was trying to wake me up. I remember telling (or pleading?) him to let me sleep as I haven't got enough of it at the night before. Then I realized he put something on my small breakfast in bed laptop table (actually it's Firdaus'), so while telling him to stop waking me up, I opened my eyes, and I saw that thing.

 I recognized it straight away, and that made me grin from ear to ear. Then I heard Adam mumbled, then I just continued sleeping.

The next day, I went to him and showed to him that thing he gave me -

FM: Me
AA: Adam

FM: Abang, is this for me?
AA: I had a few already, but yeah you can have it. Isn't that what you really want before? You know, during the war dulu-dulu...
FM: HAHAHAHAH. Yes! oh.. wait, so am I dying soon?
AA: Farah, we're both going to die remember. They're both dead in the end.
FM: heee *grinning* Thank you Abang!

Then I went away happily.

Well, what he gave was this

To those who love Studio Ghibli movies may recognize this candy & the significance of it. Because we were referring to this movie

 

Grave of the Fireflies

A movie about an abandoned brother & little sister who were trying hard to survive during the war in Japan.

You gotta watch it if you havent.

Whatever it is, I am still surprised on how I can still recognize the box. I think the last time I watched that movie was  in... 2008?

Anyhoo, I think my brother can be awesome...sometimes :P Hah, my BFFY ;)

Just another windy night. But this time, its very windy. I am scared.

Enough of fantasy movies. Haha. Actually, its singular. Fantasy movie. Yes, I watched that movie... again and again. Howl's character never bore me. Honestly, if I were to choose between Spirited Away and Howl's Moving Castle, storyline wise I'll definitely choose Spirited Away over the latter.

Well, I accompanied Nana & Vivy one time. And then I had another round with Qilah. So basically I have been accompanying people to watch that movie. I don't mind really. haha.

I watched another movie. This time its chick-flick time. I chose "Because I said So".

Well I think the movie is alright. Very light. And the character Johnny is such an eye-candy! He's played by the actor Gabriel Macht. Googled him up cuz I think he has Johnny Depp's resemblance (I don't know why:P), I just wanna see if they're related by any chance. haha. In the end I found out that he's gonna be in Frank Miller's The Spirit. I know that I like Frank Miller's movies. So I think I am going to wait for this :)

Mandy Moore is cuter in this movie. haha why am I mentioning this? er...

And watching this movie shows things mother and daughter do together. Maybe not the match making service part tho. They remind me of my mother and I.

Earlier this evening I just realized that the character Scout and Calpurnia in the book To Kill a Mockingbird reminds me of Kak Nah and I. Oh yeah I just started reading it. And I am aiming to finish it. I am not a fan of books. but yeah I am looking for a change.

Now I am relating myself to the characters in the movies, books. Being the day dreamer I am, I definitely wonder... wonder what will it be if people make a movie about me. Or maybe a book about me.

Seriously I am so jobless right now. I have too much free time right now. Ended up day dreaming more frequent than ever. I should be looking for jobs right now, but apparently its so hard to find one-offs. There are summer works. But I am not gonna to be here for the whole three months.

Or else I'd have definitely tried the zoo. Or the Vet.

Haha yes. I am interested in working there. be in touch with the animals.

Maybe I should consider this for next year part time. I can imagine myself playing with cats at the vet already. *sigh* that would be so fun. Oh have I told you that I saw pumpkin the other day?

... I think I should stop thinking and talking about cats too much.

What one night can do to me? I wonder too much already! I don't remember hanging out at night in the city anymore. I don't remember lepak-ing at the coffee shops for so long. Although we went out last night to Strawberry Fare. Giving Lika a treat before she headed home this morning. Maybe cuz last night was quiet. Its not thursday/friday night. So its different. But staying home at night, and slacking is such a bliss! Maybe I should get my time alone outside. Not in the room. The space is too small for me to think about everything.

I need to plan for my summer. I haven't done that one yet. I have been telling myself that for hundreds of times already.

Jeez.

Empty.

Sometimes the last thing you want comes in first,
Sometimes the first thing you want never comes,
I know, that waiting is all you can do,
Sometimes...
Aqualung's Strange & Beautiful - currently on repeat. together with Aqualung's If I fall, and Easier to Lie.

He's the most handsome fictional animated character I've ever seen in my whole life... so far. Watched him for the third time, and I never got bored of him, oh and the movie. Howl's Moving Castle. I always love Hayao Miyazaki's. I'll find time to finish the box set. One day.

The first time I watched this was when I was in my first year. That was... 2 years ago? And apparently I kinda forgot the storyline. So I refreshed my mind by watching it again this morning. and tiba2 rasa tak puas. So I watched it for the second time just now.

Thanks to Iynas for the movie. Altho it has been dubbed, for the sake of wanting to refresh my mind, I take it anyway.

yeah I don't quite like Japanese movies that have been dubbed. I prefer it to be in Japanese. Cuz it sounded weird to me, having it dubbed into English. And its kinda funny to know that Christian Bale did the voice over for Howl. Its like having Batman becomes some vain heartless guy.

You know what? I don't think I gt bored by this movie. Maybe not yet. I don't mind watching it again. Probably it'll take time.

Maybe I should re-watch Totoro and Spirited Away. That should be fun :)

Anyway, yeah I should be looking for jobs. but I want to spend time with lika. She's going back in 2 days.

whoa. How time flies. It feels like she just dropped me a message yesterday. Telling me that she's coming. When was that? 2 months ago?

How time flies.

hopefully the weather will be alright tomorrow. So that we can spend more time outside =) under the sun.

Okay I think I am going to stay in bed now. I should go to sleep. I need to save. Dah nak exceed. Puasa video streaming. Puasa download. Puasa internet.

And maybe I should really list down what I want to do for the whole summer. Cuz I know theres many things to do. So little time. I should try to choose what I think I can do. hmm..

I'm off. I wanna dream about Howl.

Okay this is crazy.

Bye bye holiday :(

I decided to end my holiday by watching one of my Studio Ghibli movies, and I this time I chose to watch Grave of the Fireflies.



It's Abang's favourite. Kalau tak silap lah. haha. Cuz he keeps on asking me to watch this movie. Well, honestly watching this movie reminds me of him. All the time.



Especially at this point of time.



For the past few days, I keep on having "How I wish..." thoughts on everything; on how last trimester ended and BERSATU Games 2008. And I still cannot believe that it's all over. Personally I feel that all of us can do better than that. Everyone would say the same thing. But I think we shouldn't complain. Well at least, if you want to say something, you should at least find out what has happened. Not just jump to conclusions, say things you think you know etc.



Anyway, no matter how much you fret and complain, it won't change what has been done in the past right?



We have given all out. We have tried our best.



Okay I won't say much. But its pretty disappointing to see people complain when they don't know almost everything. More to my disappointment to see people comparing two things that is too different to be compared.



But thats life. We can't stop people from what they're doing.



What we do now is to look ahead, learn from what we have done from the past and look forward to make changes in the future.



However I'd like to take this opportunity to thank everyone who is a part of BERSATU Games 2008. Be it the management committees, the volunteers, and even our contingent WMSO and its supporters.



As for the committees, I know shit happens right? But given the circumstances that we have, we still manage to stay on and finish it til the end. There are mistakes. and like Kak Farah said, we didn't deny em. Instead we've tried our best to overcome whatever comes along the way. I am so proud of you guys. I thank you guys for all you guys have done in handling this event.



As for the volunteers, thank you for lending a hand. You guys have no idea how thankful we all are to have people like you guys to support. We appreciate every help that you guys give. Even the smallest contribution. We thank you so much.



As for our contingent, WMSO, I know this year is tough for you guys. The competitions are getting so much stronger. Everyone is great. Well to me you guys played with style. Hot tu. haha. But yeah do know that we're all proud of you guys.



And to our supporters, some may not realized but you guys have tried to cheer as loud as you can to support our atheletes. You guys had fun kan? Oh and we thank you for the support. hehe. And to sports committee, thank you for the effort you guys have in making the materials for supporters especially our mascot for the year. Comel gile ok!



And to everyone else, whether you guys directly or indirectly involved, I'd like to say thank you very much for being a part of this event. And I'm sorry if I offended you or if I wasn't being nice to you through out the whole one-week period. k?



Comments and complaints can be constructive. Therefore I'd like to thank you guys for that. However, I do think these people also deserve compliments and recognitions too. More than anything else. I'd like to also thank those who has already acknowledge what everyone has done in running this whole event=)



So peeps! life goes on. Let's all rise again, and prepare for the better future. Concluding from what some of us have already said, life is a learning process. We have to learn something in order to move forward. Just don't give up!



And last but not least, congratulations to everyone. To the winners, champions, and to everyone else.

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Tomorrrow is another new day. Sat down for awhile to think of what needs to be done. Then I realized... Its still a loong way to go.



My time to chill is up. Its time to get back on track.



All the best to everyone! and selamat kembali ke sekolah!



Oh abang, I cried watching the last part of the movie.



I miss you :(