If I could dim the lights in the mall and create a mood, I would, Shout out your name so it echoes in every room, yeah, that's what I'd do to get through to you.

Currently listening to Teddy Geiger's For You I Will.


You know you've gained weight when:

1) Your shirts are all tighter than usual, that you felt like all the buttons are gonna pop and burst (duh!)
2) Sweatpants are all that fit.
3) You sweat like crazy and you just can't stand the weather. ITS FREAKING HOT.
4) Nothing else is comfortable but super-sized shirts and loose pants.
5) You get tired easily.
6) ALL YOU CAN THINK OF IS FOOD.

And here I am admitting that I have gained weight. Pecah rekod siap. Booooo...

I need some new clothes.

uUuUuUuuuuUUuUuuU you set my soul alight.

Currently listening to Muse's Supermassive Black Hole.


I think I know what's causing the previous "tipsy" incident.

Quite positive it is CAFFEINE. Cuz it happened again today when I took tea, then a very thick coffee afterwards to keep myself awake while driving to work.

Only 2 days ago I asked myself "why don't you stop taking caffeine?". But I can't let go off my tea. Teh wangi is my current favorite, well you all should try it! Heard Giant is selling them. We usually stock up ours from Kedah. So then I told myself, it's okay, keep it low. Take smaller intake.

I am planning to stop taking Redbull too. Or again, take less. Well Nana reminded me how it is quite dangerous to rely on any kinds of energy drinks as they may increase the chances to get stroke or heart attack.

Maybe snacking will help to keep me going. New strategy yes? I have to start bringing apples whenever I go. Well any kinds of fruits. And healthier snacks.

And my mom told me this : "Farah, if you are tired, zikir Subhanallah banyak2. Rasulullah SAW told his wife Aishah RA to recite zikr Subhanallah if she's tired"

Well, I can feel its working. Hurm. Not bad ;) Subhanallah. The power of Allah yo.

Okay back to work!

Have you ever looked fear in the face and said I just don't care?

Currently listening to Mogwai's I Love You, I am Going to Blow Up.
okay, the title above is not from Mogwai - actually, this band only does instrumental rock stuff. I discovered them from Last.fm-pages-hopping and I think they're cool ;)
Anyway, the title above is from Pink's Glitter in the Air.

It is reflecting how I am feeling now, or at least what I want to feel right now. I just finished my first ever CPA Australia paper, and I have to say that I am not very proud. I know I could have done better, but given my current state of mind, I dare say that I've tried my best.

So now I am just praying hard that I will pass. Aminn.

I am now very tired up to the point that I just feel like throwing up. Is that even possible? Haha I don't know. Lately I just have that feeling-to-throw-up. Its been going on for days. Sometimes I think its because of my iron deficiency problem, which apparently agreed by my mom.

To be honest I don't know if its confirmed that I still have iron deficiency (or if I actually have other types of anemia.. as far as I can remember its written on the medical report in 2007 (thats 3 yrs ago!) that I have iron deficiency, and another check up in 2009 stating that my blood pressure is low, but its the normal low. However I cheated by taking the iron pill the night before shhhhhh) but the last time I checked when I went to see the doctor (which is a few months back), she did commented on my low blood problem and asked the same questions; do you feel like wanting to faint? how can you walk with this kind of condition??? anddd do you exercise a lot? no?.. okay you're weird (okay the you're weird remark came from only from one doctor =P). My brother Firdaus sometimes commented that I looked pale.

Maybe I should really do another check up to confirm. ah well. Looking up at wikipedia, which I don't know if we can rely on this 100% (but it seems alright) and some other random medical websites, I do have the symptoms. Ah, I am taking iron pills on (almost) daily basis together with other supplements so let's hope that's enough. I can go for a jog without feeling like passing out so I am fine, right?

But the jog is only for like 10 - 15 minutes? la la la la la la- Why is there mosquito at this hour? it's annoying! Its been a LOONNGG time since we had a lot of mosquitos in the house. Better find the source and kill them all. *sigh*

ugh enough of this. I wanted to blog about something else but yeah here I am babbling about something else. pfftt..

Anyway, apart from the exam, the rest of the day has been, relaxing. I've got my alone time so I feel good. I get to feast my eyes with Pandora beads - yes, Pandora has opened in Bangsar! And I just found out that they have one outlet at Empire Subang and opening up another one in Pavillion. Apparently Habib has started selling Pandora awhile ago, it's just that they don't have that Pandora boutique until just recently.

Sadly in NZ its much cheaper, which is sad because I am like so far away from NZ.

But better not fret. Well at least they have outlets nearby yes? And maybe that should be a reason why I must only buy for special occasion ;)

Then after feasting my eyes, I went to have my favorite Chawan's Nasi Lemak Bungkus. Thank God they still have them during lunch/tea time and since I didn't have proper breakfast earlier, so I made it my brunch. Haha. Or rather, Brunch + Tea?

And then I drove home, feeling contented :)

Now I am wasting my time before starting a (hopefully) rigorous study schedule to make sure that I can pass my next paper.

Which will be in 4 days time.

Hurm.

I have another 2 posts that I would like to make - one post on music, and another post on fashion. 4 posts pending now. pffttt...

Its the dark side, "you are correct!"

Currently listening to the Bentframe Comedy's Star Wars Rap.

When everyone become a bit stressed out, sometimes we tend to have conversations at the office complaining how tired everyone is.

But sometimes I wonder, how can I compare myself to them? I am definitely much much younger, and have less workloads as compared to the rest.

And yet I feel them whenever they talked about tired-ness.

Everyday I have this vow to sleep early. And everyday I will end up sleeping the latest. Or maybe not the latest than the rest of my family, but still, it'll be after 12.

Now its 10:40 pm. I just reached home from dinner 40 minutes ago. And my mind was like "oh its 10. gotta change. bedtime". So I changed, then do a bit of house chores. And now its 10:40. I should go pray, then get under the blanket and sleep. But then here I am. Ah, blogging kejap je kan.

I actually still have some work I brought back from office. To be honest, I have been wanting to do them. Every single night I thought that I can have a bit of time to do them. But most of the times, when I settled its already 1130pm - 12 am. So I'll opt to rest and sleep (or more like surf a bit, then sleep...). But there are times where I turned on the laptop, do the work for like 5-10 minutes, and then I dozed off. Sometimes I even sleep talk. Once I dozed off in front of my brother (as he was doing his homework) and I started to sleep talk to myself. Maybe in my mind I think Two nights ago Ayeed came over and at that time I fell asleep right after dinner. I didn't even remember that I was nagging to him that night. I nagged in my sleep.

And once, I sleep walk. I walked back and forth from one end of my bed to the other.

I still have a lot of days to ganti puasa. There's this one day I fasted, and it felt like I am going to passed out. I felt that the whole day.

This kinda scares me off a bit. I wonder why am I so unfit? Its been 3 months and I can't get myself adjusted. Maybe I should give myself a bit more time to adapt. And exercise more. And eat more brain food. I am starting to take supplements regularly so hopefully thats a start. I jog/walk around the neighborhood when I have time.

But still, don't you think it's a bit too much? to feel this tired? Do anyone know any other way that I can do to help myself?