So what if it hurts me? So what if I break down? So what if this world just throws me off the edge, My feet run out of ground? I gotta find my place, I wanna hear my sound, Dont care about all the pain in front of me, I'm just trying to be happy.

I just wanna be happy, yeah

Leona Lewis' Happy

It should be a positive month. That's my aim to achieve.

...and a way to stop myself from becoming this monster. That's like my super-power - I don't need chemical reactions for me to become Mr Hyde, or Hulk. I just have to be this weird, self-centered, emo girl I  have always been. And I really hate myself for that. I just need to learn to be cool. That's all it takes.

So I'm putting this one here again as a self-reminder. Something that I always forget. Well, I am forgetful. Especially with what just happened, I think my memory has gotten worse. It scares me that I am starting to forget not just on little things, but also on some huge ones, and also on sequences of events. Important ones sometimes. And I got really upset when that happens.

Maybe God made me forgetful for a reason - So then when you forget, you'll get reminders to remember. And He likes to send me reminders.

That He's here with me. all. the. time.

So I just hope that no matter how bad is my memory, I won't forget Him. Ever. Even without reminders.

Amin :)

It must be a positive month. To start off with.